Sometimes we need to battle out the emotions until they submit in obedience before God.
There will come a time where the supernatural clarity will release you from emotional bondage. Hold on till you reach that moment. This process is to build emotional resilience in you. There are moments when you feel you cannot take it pain, but I urge you to keep going. There are parts of this journey that will feel lonely, and that is okay. It is a process of God releasing you from things you feel you need, but you actually do not need anymore.